I Have Loved You

I have loved you beyond all reason
I have loved you beyond all hope
That you would actually ever have love for me
It seems so silly this love affair I have over you
But feels so real in my heart
I have prayed to the God above
To help me find a way through this impossible love
But have found no help from the one they call the highest.

When I see you, my heart flitters
I get butterflies in my stomach
I sweat just a little bit
My words become tongue tied
Or I say all the wrong things
You have no idea how much I want to blurt out to you
How much my heart aches in your presence.

I have loved you beyond all reason
I have loved you beyond all hope
With no knowledge you ever will feel the same for me
An impossible love this is
That I will unfortunately take to my grave
For if you cannot say you love me
My heart will surely break.

But I must be free of a love that I cannot call my own
I must let you go to save my poor sanity
With a sweet melody I say adieu
My love for you I will always cherish till time stands still
But I cannot let my heart be broken again and again
I have loved you
Goodbye.

xoxo


Momentarily

Momentarily sadness grips me and it amazes me how calm I remain. I am suddenly aware of all that is around me and I want to cry. I want to give in to the feelings that have brought me to this point. I sigh, I breathe, I embrace the silence that surrounds me, and realize the truth. There is a truth that I cannot deny, and I reflect on what this sadness really means. Is it the beginning or is it the end? Am I saying hello or goodbye? I stare at the emptiness as the tears begin there flow and I mark the moment then let it go. It was good bye to the things that entangle my life, good bye to the chaos that made me blind. Hello tomorrow and all its offerings, hello new me and the possibilities and promise. Momentarily sadness grips me and it amazes me how calm I remain.

xoxo

A Grateful Heart 

Sometimes you are carrying things that just aren’t meant for you and you need to let them go. I went through this recently and had to let go of a lot of things I was carrying and I’m so grateful that I let them go because they weren’t meant for me to carry. So that is where that quote comes from. 

xoxo

Wind Bursts

I let the wind bursts take me away

It’s winter now and they make me insane.

I don’t like the cold, 

It’s much to frigid for my little bones.

The wind bursts take me away, 

Freezing me til I’m cold no more.

xoxo